A FRESH, NEW START

Beginnings. 

I wonder if I'm good at them or if I suck at them. I was never superb with introductions. After saying a name that was too confusing to pronounce, I was always deemed as weird, intimidating, awkward or maybe, at times, uninteresting. I find it hard to start conversations with people I want to know or people I want to meet. Oftentimes, I let my chances pass. To me a simple wave or a quick nod was enough. Time flies, and the planned small talk never happens. I never get to know that person at all, and I never get to know that person's story. 

Sometimes, I can't help but wish for another chance, another way to begin. I can't help but wish I could change words like how I edit manuscripts or erase blunders with a 'delete' button. I can't help but wish that sometimes things were scripted, and beginnings were made perfect, smooth and easy. I can't help but wish for some mad scientist to build a time machine or invent a remote control with a 'rewind' button that's willing to be abused.  But I know I'm not that lucky.

And so I wanted to be good at beginnings. I wanted to be good at them because I know that there are never second chances with them. 

And so I begin with a simple 'hello, I don't have much to say, but I do have a lot to write.'

This blog is not your ordinary blog. 

It's a story. 

It's a story about a girl who's just begun college, a girl who has an extreme love for letters and melodies, a girl who has dreams and hopes and insecurities, a girl who's looking for a way to vacuum all the thoughts that's been running in her head all day. This blog is a story of girl who wishes to make a change, of a girl who wants to see the world through different eyes, a girl who, cliche as it may seem, wants to leave a dent in this supersized universe.

No. I don't plan on making this blog at least one bit of ordinary because ordinary is boring. Ordinary is being like everyone else, and I have no plans of producing a perfect clone of a near-perfect blog.

So I make my own story.

And with these words, the story begins.